Sometimes I wonder how you all do it. Stay sane, keep a happy spouse, a nice house and good kids, do your own thing and feel like you are not getting lost in the mix. When I do something for myself I feel like everything else is getting pushed aside and not getting done.
Laundry, dishes, floors mopped, husband getting some loving and kids getting crafts made.
Seriously this balance thing is really perplexing me.
Something always gives and lately it has been the relationship between Dave and I.
We bicker over the recycling.
Snap over flyer's getting put in the right piles.
Argue about underwear getting laundered.
Squabble about when and where to do 'it' when it finally happens. (Sorry parents)
What is wrong with us?!
There is a tone in the voice even though there is no need and next thing you know we are fighting over how we talk to each other.
Dumb and silly useless stuff!
It seems that we vent on each other this way.
When we do spend the right amount of time focusing on us we are fine.
Not annoyed.
Not irritated.
Not snappy.
But then something else gives.
Laundry, dishes, art, floors....etc. Then the irritation is back again.
Aghhh!
Balance.
This is my battle. I have this beautiful picture in my head of how things could be perfect. Maybe in our next house I can work out the organization and lists and make things function.
Maybe all my craftiness and mess that comes with it is what is causing the stress. We fight over that. Dave hates mess. Hates clutter.
I am a clutter bug and hoarder. By nature.
However I am also a simplistic desiring purger by nature as well. I stifle that side of me. That side of me is anxious. I am such a mix of both my parents. I can see both sides of the whole shebang and this just makes me crazy in my head.
Anyway, I am going to work on a list of getting things on track so that I can start feeling more balanced. This perplexes me a little. I don't even know where to start.
I'll let you know how it turns out.
Meanwhile lets get back to life.
My daily grind.
Kaitlyn is my little helper. She is all about the kitchen prep and helps with almost every meal.
She also shares my love for flowers and gardening.
Ethan shares my crazy hair
wispies.
They also share my love for street vendor hot dogs. (Ethan's cheek is full of one in the photo above)
However neither of them love pickled carrots like I do.
Mmmm, this is one of my favorite things about the farmers market. Yummy homemade stuff that I didn't have to make.
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Fallow's' for you mommy.
And now the little princess as a sailor. We found this outfit in a drawer while visiting at my parents place. It was Uncle Dan's (He graduated grade 12 today)
and he wore it daily for at least 3 years. After growing out of the top, he wore the hat with every thing till he was at least 4. He used to tell us that when he was big he used to drive a ship amongst a load of other jobs.
Eth man.
Chilling in the yard with Auntie Em.
The days have been so beautiful we are rarely indoors. This does help the mess situation somewhat, but then again the other chores get ignored too. Sheesh, maybe it is a self discipline thing that I am lacking.
I do love my man though despite our bickers. It is not like we are screaming or anything. It is more of an annoyance thing. When I manage the house properly we are smooth sailing.
When I don't, we are off.
I read so many happy lovey posts out there in blog land.
Are you all really that in love and perfect all the time?
I am envious.
Sometimes we don't want to look at each other. Sometimes we can hardly wait to see each other.
We are all over the map.
However despite our persnicketies we are both in love with the kids all the time and even though we may get mad at each other we see through it when it involves them.
That in love head over heals feeling that we had in the beginning....8 years ago... is a comfortable deeper love now.
I guess this is why the hurt is deeper too though.
Anyway there I go getting all off topic again.
Back to the daily stuff again.
Ethan has inherited Dave's G.I. joe's and the love for them as well.
And with the hot weather the beach has been calling. No not our new place, though we do get possession in a week, yaahoooo!
We hit the beach across the lake from our place to be this past week.
The water was a little cold still and it was windy so we just played in the sand and hung out on the play structure.
Lazy summer days are being soaked in as the house stuff gets pushed to the back burner.
I know that time with the kids is more important than chores but I also know that striking a balance so that we are all happily functioning is important too.
Back again to the week.
I wanted to get a quick and nice photo of my family.
Ethan ignores me though and Dave makes a squinty cheese.
Kaitlyn thinks I want a princess twirl so the "hey everyone smile nice" gets a little twist.
Family portraits should be interesting this year.
I do love them though, so much.
Now my man is calling me to hang out with him and the kids are in bed, I better gobble down my toast before the moment passes.
Working on this balance thing is exhausting!